Charley Allen

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Dreams too big?

This past week, I’ve had two dreams about skydiving.. As most people know, dreams mean something.. I looked up what it could be about and it means that my dreams are too big. That couldn’t be possible! My ambitions are mine and I want them to work out. I’ll work hard for all that I want. I’m a very superstitious individual so things like this make me have second thoughts. I don’t want that to be the problem with these dreams though. My main goals are:  

1: To finish college successfully then to move on to Graduate schooling. 

2: To get certified in skydiving. (How ironic that I’m dreaming about that) 

3: Be in a steady relationship with a guy I’m very fond off.

I will be a junior this fall at the University of West Florida, studying the major Criminal Justice. I like UWF, but there was a point where I wanted to transfer because I can’t handle certain things there (Not going to bother to explain). I just really, really, really hope this year is a good one and doesn’t leave me extremely stressed like last year… Next I will be getting certified in skydiving before summer ends. I’m very excited about it, but nervous at the same time.. I know I will love it because I’ve already skydived twice and it’s one of the most amazing feelings ever. It’s like a rush you’ve never felt before. And lastly the boy.. Seems to always be a problem now a days, but I’ve actually found a guy I truly care for and like. I’ve liked plenty guys, but there’s something different about him that makes this feeling exciting. We’ve been talking since March of this year and it’s been great! I just have this feeling though that it won’t work out because I go to college 8 hours away from him. I just have this “Over thinking” thought that he doesn’t want that, but only time will tell..

Overall, these skydiving dreams have brought thoughts to my head which is causing me to over think everything. I wish that wasn’t the problem, but that’s life.. What can you expect?

Don’t ever slam a door; You might want to go back. 

Apr 7

If It Means A Lot To You
A Day To Remember

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A Day To Remember | If It Means A Lot To You 

Looking good boo ;)

Looking good boo ;)

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WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Probably australia or alaska!

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Love this. Too cute.

Love this. Too cute.

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Why is life so hard?

I feel as though it’s nice and simple to just blow some feelings on tumblr.. I’m just in that mood where I think “why is life so hard?” I’m in my second semester of my second year in college and this semester is harder than ever. It’s always on my mind how stressed and aggravated I am. The life of a college student is fun and all, but it’s so time consuming… Difficulty wise.. The harder I try, the worse I seem to do. It’s so upsetting because I KNOW I’m smart. 

While this is on my mind, life is hard, emotionally as well. I think back every day to a decision I made that I wish I hadn’t. It’s now too late to get him back. I had three years to make my choice, but continuously said no. Now every guy I come in contact with that could make me absolutely happy with life, I run the other way. I’m afraid to be happy with someone else. On the other hand if the guy is a “douche” I keep pursuing. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I guess I do this because I know I’m playing it safe knowing, I won’t be able to be with them. I wish I could listen to Andrew McMahon’s (Lead singer of Something Corporate) advice “I can still be ruthless, if you let me.” Just let me Pursue the good in life and leave the bad behind me, like it’s no big deal.